End of the road

When i continued my masters, initially, there was only one thing in my head, to still enjoy the student life. I wasn't mentally prepared for what is coming up. I was just too happy and can't get enough of being a student studying overseas. When my first assignment was given, that was when it started to hit me...hard. I thought to myself, damn what did i get myself into? I did have like 7 seconds of panic then i start to calm down. I thought, it shouldn't be that hard plus it would be great to have an MA title. So i did what i have to do. Only problem then was my Political Economy module. I really didn't understand what the lecturer is saying or showing (long periods of watching videos). Luckily i have my housemate to work with, Nawir. he's an economics student and he too didn't understand political-economy (yup they're taking it too) but we're not in the same classes. Unfortunately overall i failed my assignments with an average of 47. Only exams could help me to gain back my marks back and it did. I got 58 overall :D and got 60+ for my other 2 modules. I was really happy. 40% of my whole course is done.

After i finished my exams, then i realized that in order to score a merit, all your exam marks has to be above 55. Say you score a 67,65 and 54...although on average you will get a 60+ but according to the master's handbook, it will not be consider as a merit :S Nasib jua exam ku ok! huhuhuh so yeah 40% done and now what is left is the dissertation, carrying a hefty 60% of the whole course. We were given 3 months to finish a 13500 essay. For the first month it was quite hard to concentrate on the dissertation since friends were still there and it was summer so I went there and about. Nda tau2 abis sebulan. The reason i wanted to start and finish early was because i didn't want to strain and stress myself during the fasting period...where in the first week we break our fast at around 8.30- 8.45pm while fajr was around 3am.

But finishing early of course didn't happen. Org brunei th bnr. I was quite the babal type. Udh akhir2 baruth kn d karihi. Luckily i lived with sepol and nawir, who were also trying to finish their own respective dissertation asap. And also Huda, who fed us (wesehmen, nyaman kli ah c hudz masak) and introduced us to banzuki brian and ninja warrior hahahaha. But it was a well worth struggle, through the sleepless nights, eating disorders, continuous stress and tensions and hourly caffeine shots. My bestfriend was nescafe 3 in 1. I usually lost the track of time...pagi udah matahari terbit baru tidur. Iath bari malas tu time2 lalah smpat lagi kana 'tindihi'. I can even count how many sleeps that i had that actually was a good healthy sleep. Another different case, I think i stared at the computer a bit too long that when i moved my head a bit to the right, it seems that the computer was tilting to the right as well hahaha.

I envied those who had on their FB status updates regarding on them alrady submitted their dissertation. I thought to myself, damn when is it gonna be my time? I didn't sleep the night before my deadline. By morning I look like a zombie's worst nightmare. Throughout writing my dissertation, I always check and proofread every time i finished a chapter or sub-chapter. Problem was, i didn't had a final proof reading session after everything was assembled. That made me scared...

That is why I was really afraid of my dissertation marks. I know that i just need a pass to receive my masters. Problem is I know some people who were ask to rewrite their dissertation. I was prepared for the worst. Abu, Nawir, Uncle Rajul and some of my other friends had their result way earlier than mine. I was told that it will come out this week.

Earlier today my coursemate nudged me, telling me that the results are out. I was trembling. My heart beat so fast it pass as a beat rhythm for a rap song. My fingers were shaking and i never in my life find it so difficult to click on the 'results' tab. I prayed and prayed, took a deep breath and there it was stated 'Dissertation-64'

I was stun

I was shock

I smiled

Then a tear came flowing (awu nda macho)

Rushed to my dad and i can't even organize my words. I was blabbering. Then told him properly i got Merit for my Masters! The whole family is happy, to bad mum couldn't share the excitement with us, shes in Thailand. So yeah, here's the comeback from a 2.2 degree result hahaha. Syukur Alhamdulillah. Berkat doa, usaha, tawakal, sabar, puasa, gigih plus a chunk of passion, enthusiasm, keen, willing and faith, syukur im unofficially a master holder :D

Other things that made me happy this week-

My 47 month monthsary. I love you Lydia hehehe

My newly born nephew! The new ManUtd supporter!

Futsal in Beribi is back

Syahmie's wedding this Sunday hehehe congrats dude

I just want to say thank you to everyone who supported me thoughout my masters, who gave me encouragement and strength, the ones who's there for me through thick and thin, for the companions who shared the hardships, for those who always give that extra boost, you guys know who you are and most of all syukur Alhamdulillah. For me this is the end of the road for my academic studies. I don't think i have enough working brain cell capacity to continue doing a Phd. To those whose doing their masters now, i wish you the best of luck.

Now to nag the parents for a graduation present :P